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my little brother called me a hipster because I want a pair of lo-top vans. what a little f/ucker! haha.
 

 
I wish it would hurry up and be warm out enough for shorts.
Atleast I can wear sandals now..
 

 
I also wish I knew how things were going between my bf and I. He seems happy with me again but he seemed happy weeks ago before I found out all the shi/t that was going on. He never wants to talk to me about shit soooo... Its not my fault.
 
Went to the bar with him last weekend. Drank more than I though I was going to. We ended sitting outside the bar in the ca for like over an hour talking. I was really f/ucking sad.
We (finally) talked about allllllll the sh/it that was bothering me. Im alot less paranoid now:) Mostly.
We went out on a cute date lastnight kindof. We didnt do what we'd planned on doing though, so we're going to do it again sometime soon. :):)
 

My fresh-ish cuts havent healed yet and Im going to a waterpark/hotel next week, so I guess Im stuck wearing a lame-as/s tank top and shorts to swim -_-
 
My guts feel so weird lately. I hope im not pregnant haha jk im not....
 
Ugh.
 

Dropping my bf off tonight so he can get his taxes done. While hes gone Im getting some more blond dyed into my hair. I hope it works. He wont even notice haha. He really hates blond hair..
 
Holyholyholyholyholy sh/it, I want Bruno Mars' car x_x That goldish convertible with the black top jeeezus....
 

I need a new car. And I need it by summertime fuu/ck.
 

I f/ucking hate having to use the library wifi. Y'know?
 

I want some Korean food.
 
I found a really f/ucking cute High Life tee. Bought it.
 

 

 

 
ha ok bye.

lame quick set.
its been such a sh/itty week...
 

things have been feeling really weird with my bf. and one morning before he went to work I texted him and asked him if he was planning on leaving me or something. I assumed I was jsut being paranoid and he'd text me back no. Well he took forever to reply and I knew somesh.it was up. Found out that, apparently, everyone is telling him to leave me and that Im not worth it. What a bunch of stupid, nosy motherf/uckers. They need to mind their own business they have no idea how things work between me and my bf. But I guess my bf was considering all the shi/t they put into his head.
omg it was so fu/cked up. i had to sit there all day thinking about all the sh/it while he was at work and doing his shi/t.
It was really bad.
We're still together, and going to work through it though. He said he didnt want to leave me, I just put him through too much s.hit that he cant/doesnt want to deal with..
 
Im trying not to be so pis/sed off all the time. Im not having caffeine anymore hoping that will help..
And then I found out his best friend talks a bunch of sh.it about me to him. How the f/uck do you let someone talk sh/it about the person you love and have been with for 5 years. That pi/sses me off and bothers me soooo much. Just because this motherf/ucker has his own relationship problems doesnt mean he should go try to f/ucking sabotage other peoples'. I hate that f/ucking friend of his. I hope he gets the sh/it beat out of him. How the f/uck does he have any right to talk sh/it about me. And Im sure my bf doesnt defend me either.
People say shi/t to me about our relationship and I dont even think about considering it because they have no idea.
f/uuuuuuuck.
I cut 20+ times. Most of them arent even deep enough to be considered cuts though. Bf seen some of them and didnt really care just told me not to do it anymore..
 
I feel like im a doormat to him now. He acts really arrogant and i kinda feel like he feels like he's better than me.
It really, really sucks..
 
He also seems to have gotten really obsessed with the internet. Have a feeling theres some bit/ch(es) on there that he has some relationship with that would be considered cheating. Its the one thing I havent asked him about yet and I cant ask him cos its too hard. I asked him if he's sick of me or something and he like flipped out so I dropped the subject...
Idk what to do.
 

And then while all that sh/it was going on, my poor little puppy dog died:( I miss her so much. Every time I go into the kitchen I look and expect to see her....
 

 

 

 

 

On the kindof upside..
Going to visit my friend in jail tomorrow and I found out this morning that hes gonna be out in like 2 months!!!! So awesome. Im so f/ucking nervous about going to the jailhouse though, that place freaks me out!!
 
Ok well. Im at the library because the internet is down at home, hopefully it gets fixed tomorrow. And I hate this place, so...

i feel wobbly and sober.
i have strep throat (again), I got two hours of sleep last night, my throat tastes like medicine,
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I HAVE A REALLY IMPORTANT QUESTION I NEED ANSWERED BUT I DONT KNOW WHO I CAN SAFELY ASK!
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my internet is being dumb I cant PM anyone, I have to pee bad, I dont want to move, I want to sleep, I dont want to sleep, all my music is annoying me, im freezing, my hands are always clammy, I decided on another tattoo idea, my spine and stuff hurts, im convinced I have meningitis, looking up the symptoms right now, sigh, i want this nagging feeling to go away, why didnt I think of this question sooner?, f/uuck, i really dont know what do to, maybe im just overthinking it, my hair is freaking me out, if my bf messed up my blankets on my bed im probably going to be pretty pi/ssed, people are really bothering me tonight,
 
i need something.
fu/ckfuc/kfuuuuu/ck.
idk what.
 

Jail seems so old fashioned.
 

unrelated, but
I cant think of anyone I can trust right now.
except maybe
 

 
I hope all I need is a good nights sleep.
if that ever happens.
 
I need my bf at night but he doesnt care and just wants to sleep.
 
Why am I rambling so much.
 
Whats wrong with me.
 
Well I've had alot alot of caffeine.
 
My brain is made from bird seed.
 

Maybe I'll just venture up to my bedroom, maybe that will help.
 
is meningitus just something that kids get?
am I hungry?
 

 
gutting out my bedroom and getting a kitten this spring.
 

I need a back massage so f/ucking bad.
 
Ok I think Ill hunt down some sleeping pills and take a nap because this is just rediculous(sp?)
Yes okay goodnight.
 
Or maybe not.
 

well, annoying.
 
psh.